Cynicism vs keeping faith

For me finding love was a dream, should I give up because I failed? I still want to believe that here is someone who will love me.. adore my very existence...would want to make me happy in 1000 different ways...miss me when I am not around ...basically love me silly ...coz he saw and felt the 1000 different things that I did to make him happy ...coz nothing was more important than my love ... He felt that I complimented his life...bought fun, laughter, strength in his life as much as he did in mine. So for him everything was nothing without me to share with.
Is this me living in a fairytale...refusing to be jaded? 

Forgiveness

It is a wonder how and when you really connect to a song. I recently had an awakening moment listening to "Forgiveness" by Collective Soul :) ..it goes as under...

  

In my silence I would love to forget
But restitution hasn't come quite yet
And with one accord I keep pushing forth
I stretch my heart to heal some more

It used to be all I'd want to learn
Was wisdom trust and truth
But now all I really want to learn
Is forgiveness for you

As my seasons change I've now grown to know
When one's heart creates, one's soul doesn't owe
So I wash away stains of yesterday
Then tempt my heart with love's display 

anyways people howdy :) ? Life has been good, my younger sis recently had a baby boy so now the joy in my life has quadrupled ( incase this is an OHT ... I am now a proud aunt to 'four' nieces and nephews :) ).